All my life, I have struggled with being a doormat. For a long time, I thought that’s what I should be. No one really explained that things could (or should) be different. I passively accepted whatever came my way. I thought that was the way I was supposed to live.
We have an identity thief roaming among us. He is the enemy of our souls. From the moment we are conceived, his goal is to thwart God’s amazing plan for us. This identity thief wants to keep us from stepping into our true identity in Christ.
Don’t be discouraged. The Bible and the Holy Spirit give us all we need to see past the lies of the enemy and into our true identity.
In fact, the enemy tips his hand. The very places where he attacks us the hardest are the areas where God intends us to flourish.
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” (John 10:10 NIV)
“And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not overcome it. I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.” (Matthew 16:18-19 NIV)
Recently, Jesus has brought His words to life in my heart. Since my youngest days, I have struggled with a fear of death. I read Jesus’ words in these scriptures, but couldn’t get the truth into my own heart. I believed these words for others, but not for myself.
Over the past few weeks, Jesus has brought these words home to my heart.
Now, I believe!
First, Jesus reminded me of the healing work He did in my life a few years ago. After 27 years, I was finally able to find peace and life in the memories of my dad, who I had lost suddenly as a teen:
That testimony prepared my heart for what came next – an inner healing session in which Jesus obliterated the spirit of death’s hold on me, right before my spirit eyes:
The changes in my life have been tangible since then, and I look forward to walking this out with life overflowing. Thank You, Jesus, for bringing abundant life. Thank You, God, for Your goodness and love.
The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his disciples: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ Now I have told you.” (Matthew 28:5-7 NIV)
I am immersed right now in editing the book of an inner healing teacher and spiritual coach. As I work through (and live) the words of this book, I am reminded of why inner healing is an ongoing, even daily process – the dying to self daily of 1 Corinthians 15:31.
I have worked with this teacher and spiritual coach for many years. I went through her school for the first time 12 years ago. I have been present at every school, seminar, and retreat since then. And I have been one of her interns for years. This means I have heard, lived, and walked out these teachings many times over.
And yet – the daily act of editing this book is changing my life in radical new ways.
The Apostle Paul tells us, “Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling” – Philippians 2:12 (NKJV).
He is talking here about the ongoing process of sanctification, which is a daily work of the Holy Spirit, perfecting us more and more into the image of Christ (see 2 Corinthians 3:18). The Holy Spirit will do what we allow Him to do. If we give Him our hearts daily to continue the work of transformation, we will be changed into the people God created us to be. Our families will also change, as will our churches, workplaces, and communities.
I encourage you to immerse yourself intentionally in the Holy Spirit’s process of sanctification and transformation starting today.
To help you along your journey, the first resource I highly recommend is your Bible – to begin by praying through the words of the Apostle Paul that I referenced above. Ask God to take you on that journey of transformation to which Paul invites us. That is one prayer God will answer with a resounding, “Yes.”
For human help and encouragement, I also highly recommend visiting the website of Kerri Johnson (my teacher and spiritual coach) at The Center for Inner Healing. Her website and blog offer a lot of encouragement and guidance for this process of inner healing. She also leads a tribe called The Journey that you can learn about and join (no matter where your location is) if you feel led. I am part of that tribe. And she has an upcoming healing retreat where I will also be serving.
God bless you along your journey.
When I was growing up, my mom would often vent to me about her bitterness toward people. My mom was not the kind of person people would think of as bitter. In public, she came across as quiet and kind, and a little bit quirky and eccentric.
What people didn’t realize was that her compassion came from a very sensitive heart. Her heart got stepped on quite a bit, and she was easily hurt. She held in her bitterness, which grew into resentment. Her only place to vent was talking to me. I would come home after school and hear about whoever made her feel hurt that day.
From age three, when I started attending Sunday school, I had been taught to “honor my mother and father.” I was told this was a very serious thing that Jesus wanted me to do. I took it to heart. Unfortunately, I was only given the platitude. I was not taught what honoring looks like in real life.
I came to believe that the best way I could honor my mother was to quietly and submissively allow her to say all kinds of bitter things in front of me. I would just nod my head and try to muster great sympathy. Her bitterness would grow because I kept helping her nurture it.
It wasn’t until I was in my 40s that I learned what honor really means. To honor someone is to value that person at her true God-given worth. It means holding that person up as who God created her to be.
If I had truly been honoring my mom, I would not have tolerated her bitterness. I would have let her vent, but then I would have said, “Mom, let’s pray to forgive those people and ask Jesus to take away this bitterness. Because bitterness is not who you are. I want to honor who you are. God made you loving and compassionate with a sensitive heart. I’m so sorry people have taken advantage of that and trampled your heart. That hurts me to see you hurt. But bitterness is not the answer. It is just hurting you more. Let’s ask Jesus to lift that bitterness.”
That kind of confrontation didn’t come easily or naturally to me. I avoided speaking like that to anyone. I tried so hard just to be nice. But as I have come to learn, and as a friend of mine has written so compellingly, “nice” is not a fruit of the Spirit. “Nice” elevates tolerance over truth. In my situation, “nice” dishonored my mom.
Once I realized my sin, I had to repent for how I had dishonored my mom all those years. And I had to repent for the ways I had judged her as “bitter.” Because even though I tolerated her behavior outwardly, in my heart I resented her bitterness. (You can see how easy it is for this kind of pattern to continue generationally.) I asked God to forgive me.
When I finally did have that conversation with my mom about bitterness (in my early 40s), I was terrified. But the outcome was something I couldn’t have imagined or expected. My mom’s heart softened. I may have been one of the first people to acknowledge her sensitive heart and apologize for how people treated her. We prayed together, and she said she felt better.
Our conversations after that were more peaceful. She was still bitter sometimes, but I just invited her to pray with me, and she did. She always said she felt better. I got to see a new side of her during the final years of her life, and she had much more peace. Through that experience, I learned what it meant to honor my mother for who God truly made her to be.
There is a story that comes with this picture. I love the water and I love boats. Always have. But I’ve always felt fear in a kayak. If you look closely at this photo, you will see the fear in my face. But guess what? God used this event to bring healing to my fear.
Sometimes we make vows, especially in our childhood. We do this in reaction to pain, or in an effort to prevent pain. We may see something bad and say, “I will never …” or “I will always …” The problem with this is that we take matters into our own hands, lock ourselves into our vow, and try to protect ourselves with our own strength. Instead, we should be relying on God. When we make our self-protective vows, no matter how well-intended, we don’t line up with God’s Word. We demand that He line up with our own word. (Never a good idea.)
While I was kayaking, and shaking inside, and growing frustrated with my fear (did I mention how much I love the water and boats!), I asked God why I was so terrified. Everything inside me wanted to quit. And here we were, on this beautiful, placid lake. I’m a good swimmer. What was there to be afraid of?
Well, as I started praying, God reminded me that when I was a kid, I read a book about how people would kayak through river rapids, and the kayak would turn a 360 circle, flipping the person under water and back up again. As a kid, that seemed terrible to me! So I made an inner vow: “I will never get in a boat that flips me upside down.”
And here I was in a kayak, the very same boat I vowed never to be in. No wonder my fear meter was off the charts! And no wonder I didn’t feel the peace of God. I had taken matters into my own hand, and God respects our free will!
Fortunately, I had a friend with me who knew how to pray with me to break that inner vow, which I did immediately. The change was immediate. Night and day different. It’s hard even to explain the change that came over me. The fear was gone, and I was myself again.
All of a sudden, I felt God’s peace surrounding me and leading me. My love for the water and boats kicked in. I enjoyed paddling across the lake. The wake of the motor boats didn’t affect me. I got close to the other kayaks. Previously, I was afraid to come near the other kayaks because they might tip me over. (That’s why I’m so far away from everyone else in the photo.) Once I broke that inner vow, I literally couldn’t even remember the feeling of fear. It was completely gone.
Best of all, I can’t wait to get back out on the water in a kayak and do this again. That is the greatest sign of healing of fear.
I was amazed at how fast and dramatically everything changed. All because I put my life (and my fun!) back in God’s hands. He is AWESOME!!!
If you want to learn more, I recommend reading about inner vows at The Center for Inner Healing.
I used to try almost anything to avoid pain (food addiction, denial, avoiding people, deciding not to care, etc.). I even caused my own pain to avoid the pain of being hurt by someone else. That may sound crazy, but if you have been in an abusive relationship, you might understand that. Little did I know that if I would seek God in my pain, instead of trying to avoid pain, He could use my moments of pain to help me get healed. And He has! And is. And will continue. I have a long way to go, but I have also come a long, long way. That freedom is not something I would trade for anything.
A few nights ago I had a painful experience during a would-be peaceful vacation. Because of what I have learned about God meeting me in my pain, I was able to invite Him into the pain, let Him lift the pain, help me navigate through it and learn from it. I was also able, in that painful moment, to enjoy a beautiful dinner with some awesome people, to stay engaged, to laugh, and to create an amazing memory where pain might have taken over. I didn’t “put on a happy face.” The laughter was real. Why? Because I didn’t suppress the pain. I simply invited Jesus into the pain, and His presence helped me enjoy that dinner. There was a time in my life when I wouldn’t have thought that was possible. But it truly is.
If you want to know more about how God works His healing through our pain, here is a quick and amazing article written by my friend Kerri Johnson at The Center for Inner Healing. She is the person who taught me all of this in the first place. I hope you will enjoy this article and see how God can help you find healing through your pain.
I was asked a question about prayer from a mom who also works with children. Her concern was about how to pray for/with children who are performance-driven.
We see a lot of that, especially in American society. I’m not sure about other places in the world, but in the United States, we have a way of raising competitive, driven, perfectionist performers from a very early age.
What Does Performance Look Like?
When children are performance-driven, this can lead to all kinds of behavior that is not biblical fruit of the Spirit. And the fruit of the Spirit should be how we measure our behavior. If something is not producing love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control, it is not led by the Holy Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23).
Think about the fruit you might see in a performance-driven child. The fruit can vary depending on the personality of the child, situations at home, family history, and more. But here are a few examples: anxiety, restlessness, insomnia, inappropriate appetite (either stress eating or lack of appetite), addictions (which can take many forms), meanness, lying, manipulation, intolerance of others, self-hatred, pushiness, irritability, inability to focus, emotional instability, self-injury, and so many other struggles.
Whatever form it takes, and whatever the immediate causes may be, performance-driven behavior ultimately runs on a lie the child believes deep in his or her heart: “I have to perform in order to be loved.”
As a parent, you might wonder, “How can my child not know he or she is loved!”
There can be many reasons for this lie to take hold in a child’s heart. No matter how good you are at parenting, children misunderstand things and react to things. Look at God – the best parent ever. And look how we, His kids, behave. If you see performance-driven behavior in your child, don’t let the enemy win by beating yourself up. There are powerful ways to pray and invite Jesus to turn things around.
Why Do Children Think They Have to Earn Love?
It might help to realize how children begin to misunderstand, react, and take lies into their hearts. This happens because every child is conceived in the womb with free will. From that moment on, the child is brought into a sinful world. And what a way to enter that world – without a fully formed brain, without the ability of speech, without an understanding of emotions, and without knowledge of God’s Word. If it weren’t for Jesus, we’d all be a train wreck.
Reflect for a moment on what it might be like for a little one in the womb. She hears voices around her, and those voices might express any number of emotions. She senses things from mom and dad. Even parents with the best intentions will have bad days, fears, worries, and sinful reactions to things that happen. The little one in the womb picks up on all of this. Add in the fact that some sins carry down through the generational lines, and the child is already being harassed by the enemy because of this.
The little one doesn’t have cognitive abilities to understand what’s going on or know how to express emotions in healthy ways. (Most of us can’t even do that as adults!) Instead, the little one just reacts to whatever is happening. Seeds of behavior get planted in the child’s heart, and now the enemy has a project: To nurture those seeds in the child, rather than allowing the fruit of the Spirit to grow.
God Has a Plan!
Of course, the enemy isn’t the only one with a plan. God has a plan too! And from the moment of that child’s conception, Jesus is on the move. He is ready to help that child take truth into her heart, rather than lies. This is where your prayers come in. You can invite Jesus to help your performance-driven child learn that he is unconditionally loved by God. And that there is nothing he needs to do to earn love. He is loved just for who he is. (As adults, we need to learn that too, for ourselves.)
Extremes of Performance
Performance can take extremes as well. Some children will bend over backwards in the effort to earn love. They believe love is available, but they also believe they have to drive themselves into the ground just to find it. When they are “rewarded” for their performance, that immediate feeling of love doesn’t last. They are already trying to earn the next reward.
On the other extreme are children who don’t believe love is available to them. I was one of those children. They perform to avoid punishment. They constantly worry when the next shoe will drop, and they race and perform to stay ahead of that. This can happen even in a loving home. My parents loved me and were kind to me. But my mom was emotionally unpredictable. Somehow in my little heart, I came to associate that with fear. I tried everything in my power to prevent an emotional outburst from my mom, which was way too scary for me. Do you see how this stuff happens?
Not only does performance or driven behavior hurt your kids in childhood. If it’s not taken care of by Jesus, it will stay with them into adulthood. Then it just multiplies and takes on so much dysfunction. However, if you start praying with your children now regarding performance, and help them learn the truth – that they are unconditionally loved by God – not only are you saving them a lot of grief now. You are also helping them have much less strife as future adults.
Praying for Jesus to Help Your Child
How do you pray for/with performance-driven children? Ultimately the Holy Spirit will have to lead you, but here are some suggestions to help you get started:
1. Pray the truth with them. Pray God’s Word. Help them hear, in the words He gives us, that God loves them unconditionally. John 3:16 is always a great place to start. Pray this verse with your children. Help them pray it out loud. Help them turn this verse into a prayer about God’s unconditional love. And teach them what “unconditional” means.
Help your child know that when the Bible says, “God so loved the world” that He means your child specifically. Put your child’s name into the verse. Keep praying this until the truth gets into your child’s heart.
It’s important for you to realize the difference between “heart” and “head.” Your child may have learned John 3:16 in Sunday school (that’s “head” learning). But now your performance-driven child needs to get this truth into his little heart. It’s easy for a child who has learned about the Bible to “know” something about God without believing it with his own heart. (For performance-driven children, this tendency can be magnified, as many of them will try to memorize Bible verses in order to please their parents or teachers, without believing the Bible verses in their own hearts.)
Then look for other Bible verses – there are many! – that teach about God’s unconditional love. Zephaniah 3:17 is a great one. It talks about how God sings over your child. How awesome! And how God brings peace to your child’s heart by His love. It would be wonderful to help your child pray and sing this verse back to God.
Psalm 139:13-18 helps children realize God has been with them from conception (and they were in His heart already, even before that moment). This Bible passage teaches your children how God carefully and lovingly planned and created their life. Depending on the age of your child, you may have to help put this Bible passage into words they can understand. I recommend that you pray over these verses first, and really hear God’s heart. Hear His love for each person that is so clear in these verses. Then help your child hear God’s heart through this beautiful Psalm.
Whichever Bible verses you choose, help your child hear God’s unconditional love specifically for her. Help your child make it personal. Be sure you read and pray it from the Bible. It’s fine (and necessary) to teach these things to your child, using your own words. But your child also needs to hear it from God directly, in His own words. That biblical truth, prayed straight from the Bible, has a spiritual power that will take root in your child’s heart. That truth will counteract the lies. Pray it, sing it, read it together. Then on your own time as well, pray those verses for your child, in intercession, putting your child’s name in each verse.
2. Help your child recognize the ways he performs to earn love. Help him see how this is affecting him. Do this prayerfully and filled with love. The enemy will try and use this to heap shame and more self-loathing on your child. So help your child recognize performance, but in a way that is healthy and loving. Help your child know that he is forgiven and that Jesus is here to help make things better. Give your child permission to be exactly who God has created him to be. Then pray together. Here is a sample prayer, but it’s always best if you let the Holy Spirit lead you in your prayers together:
God, thank you for showing me that I’ve been trying to earn your love. And thank you that I don’t have to earn love. What a relief! God, you love me just for who I am. Not because of what I do or don’t do. You just love me. Period! You made me exactly the way I am, and you are so happy about that! Help me to feel your love in my heart every day. Help me to love myself the same way you love me. Jesus, I know you live in my heart. Teach me about your unconditional love. Amen
3. Help your child to realize that she learned performance somewhere in her young life. She may have learned it from someone, and she may even know where it came from. The Holy Spirit might show her, or you. Either way, help your child pray to forgive whoever taught her to perform. (If the Lord shows you some responsibility in this, repent to your child.)
Even if she doesn’t know where it came from, she can still pray, “God, I don’t know who taught this to me, but you do. I want to forgive those people.” (That prayer alone might bring specific situations and people to mind, for further prayers of forgiveness.) And then have your child apologize to God for deciding to perform to earn love: “Jesus, I am sorry that I’ve been trying to perform to earn love. Thank you that you forgive me. Help me to just be who I am and to be filled with your love.”
Then you can be God’s messenger: Tell your child, in your own words and from your own heart, that you love your child just for who he is. That you are proud of your child just because of who she is. Children need to hear this. They need to hear it from you. And they need to hear it more than once.
4. Then pray together and invite Jesus to show His love to your child every day. Jesus will do this. He will absolutely answer this prayer. Jesus wants to show your child how much He loves him. So pray and invite Him to do this. Help your child to pray this directly to Jesus. And then on your own time, pray it for your child as well.
Jesus will show His love to your child in different ways. It might be through a Bible verse, or He might put words of love in her heart. She might have a dream that tells her God loves her. Jesus might show love through people who encourage her. Through friends who show unconditional love. Or it might be an overall feeling of being loved.
But trust that Jesus will answer this prayer, and He knows the best ways to answer it. Keep your eyes open and watch for what Jesus does. Help your child to recognize how Jesus shows His unconditional love. Notice it and celebrate it together. The more your child sees and feels Jesus’ love and takes it into his heart, the more he will accept that he is truly loved by God.
Let the Holy Spirit Lead
These suggestions barely scratch the surface. And they are just suggestions. Be careful not to turn these prayers into another type of performance – a religious performance. These prayers are meant to help you and your child simply connect with Jesus so He can heal a performance-driven heart. Remember that you don’t need to pray more, or prayer harder, to earn God’s love in response.
Just sit together with your child and share your hearts together with God. He will meet you there. Jesus knows what to do, and you can trust Him with your child’s heart. As much as you love your child, God loves your child infinitely more than you can imagine. And He is so proud and pleased with your child – just for who your child is.
For Teachers: A Word of Caution
Everything I have shared here is geared toward praying with your own children. But for those who are reading this, who work with children in a spiritual environment, you may be wanting to pray for these children as well. For teachers, I would add two words of caution:
First, it’s best if you and the parents are on the same page with this teaching and with these prayers. Whenever you are praying for deep issues of the heart, other issues can come up. So it’s best if the parents are involved in this process wherever possible.
Secondly, this teaching and these prayers should be offered in an environment where children understand how to honor their parents (Deuteronomy 5:16). Getting free of performance issues is not about placing blame on someone else. It’s about repenting for how we ourselves have responded to situations. And it’s about forgiving the people who have taught us to perform. It should be done in a loving and honoring way. These prayers shouldn’t become an excuse for anger, resentment, or rebellion.
Adults Can Pray This Too!
One final thought – If you, as an adult, recognize performance tendencies in your own life, you can pray all of this for yourself as well. You were taught performance somewhere in your childhood. Just as you pray these prayers with your child, on your own time you can pray them for yourself – and maybe ask your spouse or a trusted friend to pray with you. Jesus can show His unconditional love to your heart, so you too will stop believing the lie that you have to perform to earn His love. If you let Jesus break you free of your performance tendencies, this freedom will affect your children spiritually as well.
Generational healing prayers are among my favorites. Why? Because I have seen such powerful changes through these prayers.
Consider this: Because of the power of Christ, you have the ability today to stand in for entire generations of your family and repent for generational sin. God can bring redemption and realignment to your family line, so your entire family can begin to walk in the calling and blessings God has given to you.
That’s pretty powerful.
Here are 4 helpful things to know about generational healing:
1. Numbers 14:18 tells us how generational curses pass through the family line. This verse also tells us of God’s love and mercy. He wants us to be healed and He has made provision for our healing through Christ. Read Isaiah 61 about how Jesus has come to set the captives free.
Generational sin opens the door to these generational curses. They pass for 4 generations (10 generations for sexual sin – see Deuteronomy 23:2). This passing of the curse to 4 generations actually shows God’s restraint (He could have made them pass longer). But if nobody repents, the sin keeps moving down the family line, becoming generational iniquity. Iniquity means a propensity to bend. It means the family has an inherited tendency toward that sin.
2. The Bible tells us to “bind the strongman” (Matthew 12:29, Mark 3:27, Luke 11:22). The strongman is the enemy who has plundered the generational blessings of each family. Read all of Luke 11 for insight into how the enemy plunders a family and how he is overturned by Christ. When we identify the strongman (e.g., addiction, pride, fear, sexual sin, violence, jealousy) and repent on behalf of the generations of our family, we invite Jesus in to set us free.
3. Generational sin is based in repentance. Through Christ, we have the ability to humble ourselves and choose to repent for the sin that has brought curses to our family. We forgive our ancestors who opened those doors to generational sin. We repent of the ways we personally have engaged in that sin. Then we stand in restitutional repentance on behalf of our entire family line. We ask God to restore the generational blessings He intends for our family.
Often, we can identify those blessings because they are the direct opposite of the generational sin we have experienced. A family mired in generational fear has a blessing of power, love, and sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). A family cursed with generational violence has a generational blessing of peace (Luke 8:26-39). A family that has been ripped apart over the generations by jealousy, strife, and contention is called to a generational blessing of love (1 Corinthians 13:4). The enemy tries to steal our gifts and blessings. Where he strikes us is the exact opposite of who we and the generations of our family are really supposed to be.
4. With generational repentance, the enemy will be silenced. He will no longer have such a strong hold on your family to compel each person into those generational curses. This doesn’t mean the enemy will stop trying to trip people up. John 10:10 tells us he will continue to try and thwart God’s plan for our lives. However, with generational repentance, he doesn’t have the rights and the degree of force he had before. It gives people in your family a chance to come to their senses and hear the truth from Jesus. The generational truth becomes louder than the lies.
Because of free will, family members may continue to choose to engage in a particular sinful behavior. The doors to sin that are open in a person’s heart are complex. Jesus is the only one who can show each person how to heal and turn from those sins. But the difference, after generational repentance, is that the enemy won’t have the same generational power as before to compel that behavior. I liken it to Jesus removing a megaphone from the enemy’s hands.
This is where your prayers of intercession become so important. If a family member continues to follow in the old ways of the generational curse, you can intercede from a place of healing, truth, and blessing. You can’t change that person’s heart – only that person can do that, because of free will. However, you can pray for the Holy Spirit to help that person hear truth: that they are not a prisoner of fear, but rather they walk in power, love, and sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7); that they are not an addict, but rather they are adopted by God (Romans 8:15); that they are not a victim of generational strife and jealousy, but rather they walk in God’s love (1 Corinthians 13:4).
As you walk in your generational healing, and take ground from the enemy (Ephesians 6:13), you will be inviting the Holy Spirit to work more deeply in your family line. Your prayers of generational repentance, your generational healing, and the ways you choose to walk this out with Christ will have a powerful effect on your whole family.
Today is a great day to repent on behalf of yourself and the generations of your family. It’s a great day to step into God’s generational blessings.
Thank You, Jesus, for healing us.
Last night, I had a weird, freaky, but also amazing dream.
In the dream, I was placed inside a vision and I was supposed to write about it.
I was put inside the enemy camp. I was surrounded by demons of all shapes and sizes, including big ones taller than a two-story building. I could see everything they were doing and all the ways they were plotting against people.
I was freaked out to be there. They could see me but they couldn’t touch me.
Their strategies were so air tight that it freaked me out even more, because it looked like they were doing serious damage to people.
But then (here’s the cool part) I got to watch how their plan would be foiled and a person would be snatched away from them because of Inner Healing.
They were flummoxed. The madder they would get, the more they would make mistakes and more people would be snatched away from them.
As Inner Healing would start, they would redouble their efforts to thwart it. But as Inner Healing gained momentum, they couldn’t overcome it and people would literally be snatched out of their grip – sometimes whole families.
I literally saw the people in their grasp (that was the awful part) and then watched as people were pulled out of their hands (that was the cool part). The worst was that in-between part as people started Inner Healing and the demons tried to bully them. Sometimes, it would look like the demons were going to succeed but then they got weaker and the person was literally whisked from their hands.
I was there watching this for a while and was told to write about it. Then I woke up.
As I woke up, I felt freaked out, like really scared because I still felt the presence of the enemy in that camp.
What I would normally do when feeling like that is get up, turn on the lights, turn on a silly movie – anything to break the atmosphere.
But this time, I decided not to give it power. I stayed in bed, right where I was, and I asked Jesus to deal with the fear. I prayed Psalm 91 over myself and asked Him to cover me. And I went right back to sleep.
I felt like this dream showed how God uses Inner Healing to break people out of the enemy’s grasp – not only for the healing and freedom of that person, but also for the benefit of entire generations. This has certainly been my Inner Healing experience. As I have gone through Inner Healing, I’ve stayed focused on Jesus. But this dream showed me the enemy’s reaction, and how God has used Inner Healing in so many ways to free my heart and my family from the enemy’s oppression. It’s a beautiful thing to see. God is so faithful. The fact that I was able to respond, upon waking, with peace instead of fear is itself a testimony to what God has done in my life through Inner Healing. Thank You, Jesus.